Madam Purita's Crystal Ball

I wonder how accurate fortune telling and the other psychic stuffs are. My sister and I had a kick out of our “fortune readings” last weekend at Eastwood. Madam Purita, our fortuneteller had a lot of good things to say. I have to give props to her since she got some of the details right without me telling her, but you could tell also a lot of her “hulas” were just plain “bola” but amusingly funny though. Upon sitting down, she told me right away that I would get married next year. So that leaves me a few more months before finding the one. At the rate I’m going, it looks like it’s going to be a whirlwind romance then. I don’t think so. She further predicted that I would leave soon, probably by August or September. I asked her where. She answered Taiwan right off the bat. I wonder where in the world she got that one. In fairness to her though, I have planned on going to China to study this August. Unfortunately it didn’t push through. Madam Purita would have totally impressed me if she had guessed this accurately. She was able to guess though that I have a sister who’s living abroad. At first, it didn’t sink in since she said living. But then I remembered Candice who’s now in HK training…so it’s close enough. She was also able to guess that we were four siblings in total. She had the 4 of Hearts (or was it diamonds?) up in the table. That I had to admit was a good one.

The 15-20 minutes reading was an entertaining one. Most of the predictions have been made towards the future so I wouldn’t know if it is accurate or not. I would have to see in the next couple of months and validate Madam Purita’s claims. Surprisingly it was a feel good kind of thing. She had me ask questions without saying it aloud and she would answer it with a positive or negative answer. I’m crossing my fingers it’s not all bull. Hehe It’s an ego booster, I tell you. Hearing nice things one after another makes you want to look forward and move forward. Even if it’s not 100% true or accurate, it’s still sort of encouraging to hear the things that you want to hear. Sometimes though it doesn’t hurt to believe and be hopeful, just as long you don’t cross the borderline of being a fanatic to the point of letting the predictions totally control and affect your everyday decisions.

In A Balloon Situation

If I could put my current situation into an analogy, it would be that of a balloon tied into a railing somewhere outside; it’s flying alright but not quite. Really it’s all just an illusion; I let myself think that I’m already way up in the sky, but in reality I’m still tied down. What I don't know, it’s only because of the balloon's long string that’s making me fly, high enough for me not to notice that big knot over the railing.

Does the problem lie with me wanting to have and do so much, so much so that I can’t seem to appreciate the simple things that actually make my life more meaningful? Life’s great, not perfect though but it’s still good. But why despite this, can’t I seem to stay satisfied? I say blame it on the consumer ads that are plastered all over the place. Take the Nike ad as an example. Remember the ‘Just Do It!’ campaign? There’s also the most recent one by Addidas, the ‘Nothing is Impossible.’ ad. Like everybody else, I want to be Superman who can conquer the world and do a gazillion of things in this lifetime, just so I could say I’ve lived a worthwhile and jam-packed life. It’s frustrating because I just don’t see the ‘Live life to the fullest!’ motto happening with me. It’s those ads, I tell you.

Letting Go

I don’t know if there is such a thing as ‘over thinking’. I’ve been thinking so much the past few months, I think (see there I go again) I’m going to have a mental breakdown. Okay fine I’m just being overly dramatic. Hehe

I’ve been thinking the same thing over and over again. It’s like my mind is set on auto-rewind with a dysfunctional play > and fast forward >> button that refuses to cooperate. This is doing me absolutely no good at all. It hasn’t provided me with any satisfying answers at all. The more I think, the more baffled I get. The more I analyze things, the more I end up totally wrong in my assessments.

Maybe all I need to do is just leave things as it is and not think about it as much. Got to move forward and start anew. Got to accept the situations for what they are and let go. There are some things in life that I can’t hold on to forever. As the old saying goes, the only thing that’s permanent in this world is change. People will come and go. Things will eventually change. I have to stop fooling myself, and stop holding on to something that’s not there. The others have turned over a new page already. I too, shall do the same thing.

I shall move forward. I shall march on like the little drummer boy. Staying at a standstill will be non-negotiable starting from now on. Life will be good. Life IS good. Damn, time to make that play button to work right again.

Of last week, today, and tomorrow

The past few days have been filled with a lot of activities. There’s the bridal shower, the wedding, and my uncle, who by the way is only a few years older than me. Uncle Adam or ‘Aahh-daam’ as we sarcastically call him (according to him, it’s ‘Ey-dem’ or something like that) came over here for a short vacation from the US. He specially requested that he stay over at our house. I thought we would have a hard time entertaining him. But it turned out to be no problem at all. It’s good to see him again, yeah even if he makes fun of our non-American slang accent.

My cousin got married yesterday, the first wedding in the clan. I can’t believe how much we’ve all grown. It seemed only yesterday when we would go to Q-zar or have sleepovers. Soon, we’ll all be married off with little kids running around the place. Well I don’t think it would be that soon for me anyway, although I’m almost next in line. (Nako pressure!) Yeah we usually follow the ‘according to age policy’ in our family. Haha I think I would have to pass though, because the big ‘L’ has been pretty elusive. They say it’s just around the corner, what corner are you talking about?!

I don’t know if it’s because of the recent events, but I’m relatively happy these past few days. It’s all about get-togethers last week and maybe up until tomorrow. I miss getting together with my cousins. We usually meet up only during required family gatherings. But now with the pre-wedding activities and with ‘Ey-dem’ being here, we’ve been going out a lot more often. Then last Friday, I also got to meet up with an old friend who came back from Canada. We go way back since elementary days, can you believe?! 5th grade to be exact. It’s been ages (literally!) since I’ve last seen her. Shucks I can’t help but think I’ve been left way behind already. Everybody’s changing and I’m still the same. If it were a race, I’m definitely in last place. This only means one thing; I got to run like hell starting here onwards.



Top to Bottom (L-R): She and Jay, the Newlyweds; Cousins; Adam attempting to be Jasmine Trias;
w/ my sistahs minus Candice